Today I got to work all day (Hubby had kid duty today - heh heh, I said duty!)
I was super busy all day, but not painfully so. I kinda liked it. Made me feel useful.
My 8 year old has been SUPER the last two days. He was an ass last week, but has been such a sweetie pie (I worry about some sort of bi-polar actual - he is really two separate kids). I think I'm going to take him to the local minor baseball game this weekend with a friend.. My daughter can't go to baseball games because of her peanut allergy, but I think my son would enjoy it. I had some special time with my daughter at baton nationals where we went to the zoo and had our toes done and went to a magic show, so I think a baseball game with my son and his best buddy would be perfect. We'll see.
Yes - I said yes to everything at work (making me a true YES MAN - and my boss isn't even around - he's currently on vacation.)
I suggested playing Skipbo (a card game) with my family after dinner. I said yes to watching Wheel of Fortune with my son after bath time before bed. I said no to mindless web surfing while the kids were awake... It made a difference to ME....
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
Yes - Whatever
Today I didn't really say No...
It was a super busy day at work - which was fine. The kids had their first day of school - my parents were not here. So, I could just focus on work. It was nice actually. I expect work to be busy for the next few months.
I was even able to fit in my daughter's allergy shots (not mine - but I'll try to get those done tomorrow.)
My son was being super nice today. It was a nice day.
It was a super busy day at work - which was fine. The kids had their first day of school - my parents were not here. So, I could just focus on work. It was nice actually. I expect work to be busy for the next few months.
I was even able to fit in my daughter's allergy shots (not mine - but I'll try to get those done tomorrow.)
My son was being super nice today. It was a nice day.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
The Routine Yes
Oh - I haven't been posting. Thursday and Friday can be summed up by one word, "Overwhelmed." It's not a pretty word. Work just kicked my butt. Kicked it... With my parents here and work going absolutely crazy - it just caused me uber amounts of stress. This weekend was a little bit better. Tomorrow I head back into the chaos. At least I don't have to worry about my parents - and feeding them - and worrying about them being roped with the kids all day... Awful...
The kids start school tomorrow - I'm glad for the routine... But, honestly - I'm worried about work and school and meeting teachers.. Blah blah blah...
Today - I said yes to all my routine stuff... Going to the grocery store... etc.
However, I always get my kids new shoes for the first day of school. The last few days my 8 year old son has been an asshole. He can be the sweetest most adorable and wonderful kid. But, he can also act like satan spawn... The last few days he has just be SO MEAN to his sister (I'm sure it's an unconscious reaction to my stress level with work...) And after being warned REPEATEDLY on the way to the shoe store and told that he would not get new shoes if he kicked, pinched, poked, bullied his sister - we had to turn around after getting to the shoe store because he just pushed too far once too many times. As I was pulling out of the parking lot he kept saying, "I'll be nice now!!!" Sorry Charlie - I gave you that option when I told you to cut it out FIVE TIMES AGO!!!
So - I either said "NO" you cannot have new shoes. Or "YES" I will follow through and do what I say. And the kid needs to listen to his mom... His sister DID get new shoes - she wasn't being a major jerk.
After we got home, my son and I had a long talk about choices - and how HE makes the choices. And that much of what happens to him isn't other people's fault (he ALWAYS blames someone else.) He needs to learn that HE alone controls much of what happens to him. He was much sweeter the rest of the night.
The kids start school tomorrow - I'm glad for the routine... But, honestly - I'm worried about work and school and meeting teachers.. Blah blah blah...
Today - I said yes to all my routine stuff... Going to the grocery store... etc.
However, I always get my kids new shoes for the first day of school. The last few days my 8 year old son has been an asshole. He can be the sweetest most adorable and wonderful kid. But, he can also act like satan spawn... The last few days he has just be SO MEAN to his sister (I'm sure it's an unconscious reaction to my stress level with work...) And after being warned REPEATEDLY on the way to the shoe store and told that he would not get new shoes if he kicked, pinched, poked, bullied his sister - we had to turn around after getting to the shoe store because he just pushed too far once too many times. As I was pulling out of the parking lot he kept saying, "I'll be nice now!!!" Sorry Charlie - I gave you that option when I told you to cut it out FIVE TIMES AGO!!!
So - I either said "NO" you cannot have new shoes. Or "YES" I will follow through and do what I say. And the kid needs to listen to his mom... His sister DID get new shoes - she wasn't being a major jerk.
After we got home, my son and I had a long talk about choices - and how HE makes the choices. And that much of what happens to him isn't other people's fault (he ALWAYS blames someone else.) He needs to learn that HE alone controls much of what happens to him. He was much sweeter the rest of the night.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Yes Overwhelmed
I'm not feeling good about my Yes experiences these last two days. Matter of fact, I didn't even have time to blog yesterday.
Work has taken over my life this week - which sucks. But, as my boss says, this is my superbowl. I've been working for the past year for the next 6 weeks. He also told me not to expect to have a personal life for the next few weeks. Unfortunately, my parents flew in from Kansas this week - and they have been totally and completely ignored. Usually work is pretty easy - but not right now. I had no idea this was coming. I thought I had it all under control - my master planning would pay off! NOT!
Anyway - I have not been saying Yes to my parents - and you cannot believe how bad I feel about that. I have only been saying Yes to work... Because it fills in every crack of my existance.
I'm stressed... Very stressed... More stressed than my normal stress level... Even more stress than my high stress level... I am worried about next week when the kids start school - and my boss is out of town... And the big boss (VP) just tells me when we're having a meeting (5:30pm yesterday - screw the fact that my son has soccer practice.) 8am on Monday - he doesn't give a crap that it's "Meet The Teacher" time... (thankfully something else came on his calendar and he moved it to 10am)... But, this whole thing is killing me.
I'm figuring out that I only have so many Yeses... Right now - Work gets my yesses. Which doesn't make me feel good.
Music has been my release... Well, music and wine (which isn't as great.)
Work has taken over my life this week - which sucks. But, as my boss says, this is my superbowl. I've been working for the past year for the next 6 weeks. He also told me not to expect to have a personal life for the next few weeks. Unfortunately, my parents flew in from Kansas this week - and they have been totally and completely ignored. Usually work is pretty easy - but not right now. I had no idea this was coming. I thought I had it all under control - my master planning would pay off! NOT!
Anyway - I have not been saying Yes to my parents - and you cannot believe how bad I feel about that. I have only been saying Yes to work... Because it fills in every crack of my existance.
I'm stressed... Very stressed... More stressed than my normal stress level... Even more stress than my high stress level... I am worried about next week when the kids start school - and my boss is out of town... And the big boss (VP) just tells me when we're having a meeting (5:30pm yesterday - screw the fact that my son has soccer practice.) 8am on Monday - he doesn't give a crap that it's "Meet The Teacher" time... (thankfully something else came on his calendar and he moved it to 10am)... But, this whole thing is killing me.
I'm figuring out that I only have so many Yeses... Right now - Work gets my yesses. Which doesn't make me feel good.
Music has been my release... Well, music and wine (which isn't as great.)
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Ok, So I Lied
YES - I finished up getting our beginning baton skills class ready. Fingerprints and contracts are all in place for the coach. Yay!
YES - I played tripoly with my family (again)...
YES - I WAS able to work and balance life today. However, tomorrow isn't looking so great.
Saying No yesterday wasn't a big deal. I think it worked out just fine.
YES - I was given a crazy ass deadline of 5pm tomorrow. The work will take approximately a week and I have 24 hours. And my parents are in town and I'm not really working. However, I am now. Yesterday I said that I would ALWAYS choose family? Well, I guess that is not true. Tomorrow I have to go into work in the morning. I have to hit this deadline. There are lots of people and people's jobs riding on what I'm doing at work. So - yes my family is important, but, if I don't do my job and do it well right now - a LOT of people could be out of work (including myself). So, I'm working tomorrow morning. My parents are going to play with my kids. It probably wouldn't matter so much if I was here or not. But, I still have guilt.
Yes sometimes equals guilt, and No sometimes equals guilt. I think that no matter what, guilt may be a working mom's constant companion.
YES - I played tripoly with my family (again)...
YES - I WAS able to work and balance life today. However, tomorrow isn't looking so great.
Saying No yesterday wasn't a big deal. I think it worked out just fine.
YES - I was given a crazy ass deadline of 5pm tomorrow. The work will take approximately a week and I have 24 hours. And my parents are in town and I'm not really working. However, I am now. Yesterday I said that I would ALWAYS choose family? Well, I guess that is not true. Tomorrow I have to go into work in the morning. I have to hit this deadline. There are lots of people and people's jobs riding on what I'm doing at work. So - yes my family is important, but, if I don't do my job and do it well right now - a LOT of people could be out of work (including myself). So, I'm working tomorrow morning. My parents are going to play with my kids. It probably wouldn't matter so much if I was here or not. But, I still have guilt.
Yes sometimes equals guilt, and No sometimes equals guilt. I think that no matter what, guilt may be a working mom's constant companion.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Tripoly and Planes
I said "No" today, in order to say "yes" to something more important to me.
My boss came into my office today around 11:15 this morning - minutes before I was to leave to pick up my parents from the airport. He told me that the big boss wanted me in the Bay Area tomorrow so I could get some "face time" with some people in a group that I work with. Going to the Bay Area tomorrow would mean that I would need to leave around 5:30am and not get home until 6:30 or 7pm tomorrow night. Ummm... Note the first sentence - my parents have come into town - they only come to visit about once a year. Not only that - but my son has an eye doctor appointment and I need to do some work (getting the coach fingerprinted and contracts signed for the city) for our local baton class that starts in a few weeks. Additionally - these people he wants me to get face time with - half of them are in Texas this week and I just saw them two weeks ago. So, I said no. It may come back to bite me...
Anyway - awhile ago - I said yes to being the president of my daughter's baton team. We are trying to grow the team with a beginning skills class and I'm making up fliers to send to all the schools. The stars aligned and a printer has agreed to do the printing for free - and just charge me for the paper. We're talking a savings of WELL over $100. WOOT!
Anyway, I also said yes to playing Tripoly (a weird card/betting/pokerish game) with my mom, hubby and the kids. We had a really good time. It was nice to just hang out with them.
I also picked my parents up at the airport - such a strange place.. I love airports (I hate flying, but I love airports.) They are like self-contained citys... :)
We'll see if my saying no gets me in trouble - but, sometimes I have to choose. And I will (almost) ALWAYS choose family.
My boss came into my office today around 11:15 this morning - minutes before I was to leave to pick up my parents from the airport. He told me that the big boss wanted me in the Bay Area tomorrow so I could get some "face time" with some people in a group that I work with. Going to the Bay Area tomorrow would mean that I would need to leave around 5:30am and not get home until 6:30 or 7pm tomorrow night. Ummm... Note the first sentence - my parents have come into town - they only come to visit about once a year. Not only that - but my son has an eye doctor appointment and I need to do some work (getting the coach fingerprinted and contracts signed for the city) for our local baton class that starts in a few weeks. Additionally - these people he wants me to get face time with - half of them are in Texas this week and I just saw them two weeks ago. So, I said no. It may come back to bite me...
Anyway - awhile ago - I said yes to being the president of my daughter's baton team. We are trying to grow the team with a beginning skills class and I'm making up fliers to send to all the schools. The stars aligned and a printer has agreed to do the printing for free - and just charge me for the paper. We're talking a savings of WELL over $100. WOOT!
Anyway, I also said yes to playing Tripoly (a weird card/betting/pokerish game) with my mom, hubby and the kids. We had a really good time. It was nice to just hang out with them.
I also picked my parents up at the airport - such a strange place.. I love airports (I hate flying, but I love airports.) They are like self-contained citys... :)
We'll see if my saying no gets me in trouble - but, sometimes I have to choose. And I will (almost) ALWAYS choose family.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Smooth Legs
OMG - O.M.G....
I said yes to my ten year old daughter when she asked (for the upteenth time) if she could shave her legs. The child is hairy. Very very hairy. She has had incredibly hairy legs for quite some time. But, it was starting to really bother her. She has brought it up several times. And has even had some teasing... So, when she asked, I said yes. I showed her how to do it - and my now TEN YEAR OLD has smooth legs. OMG.... This is the first yes that has actually hurt my heart. Not in a bad way - but in a bitter sweet way. I thought she was WAY too young - but in everything I've read - it's a pretty normal age I guess. Oh man...
I said yes to a doughnut today (nom nom nom)...
I said yes to going to Taekwondo - even though I REEEEEALY didn't want to.. But, I'm glad I did and it was good exercise. Especially after the doughnut.
I said yes to losing control and getting the out of control giggles over nothing with my daughter while waiting for the allergist. After he came in, we kept breaking up - we both had tears streaming down our faces. It was terribly embarrasing - but a laugh like that is better than ANY drug.
I said yes to my ten year old daughter when she asked (for the upteenth time) if she could shave her legs. The child is hairy. Very very hairy. She has had incredibly hairy legs for quite some time. But, it was starting to really bother her. She has brought it up several times. And has even had some teasing... So, when she asked, I said yes. I showed her how to do it - and my now TEN YEAR OLD has smooth legs. OMG.... This is the first yes that has actually hurt my heart. Not in a bad way - but in a bitter sweet way. I thought she was WAY too young - but in everything I've read - it's a pretty normal age I guess. Oh man...
I said yes to a doughnut today (nom nom nom)...
I said yes to going to Taekwondo - even though I REEEEEALY didn't want to.. But, I'm glad I did and it was good exercise. Especially after the doughnut.
I said yes to losing control and getting the out of control giggles over nothing with my daughter while waiting for the allergist. After he came in, we kept breaking up - we both had tears streaming down our faces. It was terribly embarrasing - but a laugh like that is better than ANY drug.
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